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Monday, May 21, 2007

This post is not inspired by anything..

maybe just the fact that I feel like a useless piece of shit for doing things I am not supposed to be doing. You know certain things are against your moral guidelines. but then I have not breached it as bad as some people I know.. then again, giving them the benefit of doubt is important. but BUt buuuttt.. I cant help but believe it!!!! why?? we are like freakin only 17 freakin or 18 years OLD!

like HELOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

INFACT, what I have done is like nothing.

Lesson learnt? When u feel guilty, just look at a bigger loooooserr and then you feel so saint-like.

specially in TPJC. waaaaaaaaaah. I feel like an angel.

I dont understand how people can openly bitch about people in their blogs.. I mean if they are completely unconnected to you but you still hate the guts out of them, then ok man. but what if its just not politically right? control those angry fingerss, missy.

tra la la la la

I agree with some to some extent that dance did not deserve maybe Gold with honours, or I mean to say, I did agree. but after reading the comments from the judges, I fully agree that we DID indeed deserve it. we were like, PUH-LEASE, unique. with U and N and I and Q and U and E in capitals. amazingly, we were coordianted, amazin use of costumes. BLAH BLAH

Dance, on the other hand, is gettin annoying, like SUPER FREAKING annoying. i thought we were done with the syf dance, oh dear, NO. we have like a 2378456857634783 performances STILL. the only reason i go is coz i LOVE the dance people... jus CRAZY CRAZY people I can go MAD with.
I had so much fun today during dance prac even though it was a waste of my time. but i enjoyed.. crapping around with rahman.. creating silly dance movies, cheerleading, singin for SHAWN, skipping to the bubble tea shop, creating dreams with jacq abt dancefest.

and then zal jus made my day by smsing me the sweetest msg which totally pulled me back to the good old sec sch days. as bad it was with those fuckin' jerks around and the hell that we had to go through each day of cruuuucciiiiaaalllll sec4 year, all those 'away from civilization' days and telepathic and extreme ownership of floorball makes DUNEARN days AMAZING.

message? send a short sms to your friends, make them smile.

OH YEAH. right before zal smsed me a fuckin lizard dropped on me OK! it was like the WORST feeling in my life. hpnd to me for the 1st time. hope it never happens again. it better not. or somebody is gonna get a hurt reallyy bad. yUCKS> it was so dfuryb5
$%^$%^$&%GFvigfnjvdtirnfuckindisgustinshitiduneverwannagothroughagaino
relseisweariwilldieandthenextpe epersonwhocomesinsightwithjburninhell.#%$%^$%^%^$%

Amelia sprained her knee. she walks funny now.

Mitali can play 'twinkle twinkle on the violin. WEEEE. way to go darrl!

I dont know how to play any instrument.

OHGOD, wanna talk about disproportion? spell check
if u were to look at my fingers, u will think i m some fatso, obese piece of meat.

oh dear, then when u look at ME, as a whole, you LAUGH>

I realised my entries are not interesting anymore. OK, I will try to go back to the past mode. when I get the time to.

you see, I am a busy, busy girl. weehehe

Sunday, May 13, 2007

quick post

5 minutes

Othello essay due.

when? tomorrow?

what is the freaking time now, radhika?

9.15 pm?

what have you been doing?

ehhh...sleeping?

hmm.. -taps feet-

i REALLY had an awful headache -makes that pathetic face-

so my alter ego speaks.

I have not thought so much, so deeply, in so long.

Its almost a cause for my headache. I do not want to think - about this, about that, about you.

I want to know, in an easy way, what is inside that head.. mine and yes, yours and (to make this entry seem general, HEH) everybody's!

I dont wanna have to wait.

I feel happy, sad, confused, frustrated, nonchalant, ironically curious, kepo (spell check), busy, pathetic.

NY Othello production was ah! interesting. Read nicole's blog for a clear cut way to kno how I felt. Gotta be diplomatic here yeah. wasted 17 bucks on cab though! wats wrong with me!? seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy... money does not grow on trees!

went for my first ever ICS night at TJC. never ever going for one again. went for purva, you rocked darl. but oh my oh, ICS nights and me do not get along. went with manpreet. she is the epitomy of a BABE! met a few people I had been wanting to meet though. =)

Basically what I am trying to say is that maybe I have been too anti "my own culture" because of TPJC. No, more like. I have been anti "my own people". Seriously, I think I was super wrong in doing so.

Ok I dont know what crap I am spouting. but it makes sense somewhere in the back of my mind.

It is so impt. to let it all out.

to mei: yeah, lets see them slam us!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

I think I will dream about the reincarnation of Hitler tonight.

and then I will wake up screaming.

and then I will probably have to go get a M.C.

but that would not help.

then how?

no wonder so many Jews died. What is it called? Holocaust.
(psst.. I forgot what it was.. had to ask mimi)

SAY how about the funny conversation we had when we were being punished. HMMM.. it has advanced...

1. Express your love: TOO VAGUE
2. Hello Hello
3. Whaaaaat?

hmm.. Classic.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Certain incidents make you think of certain things... make you realise that its time to review your life all over again and where it is heading..

SO after yesterday,

thought no1.
My life needs serious reviewing.
I have not done ANY research for the universities and their requirement.
I have not contacted ANY law firm for that one week internship which is SOOO darn important.
I have not completed a single piece of h.w properly in ages.

thought no2.
I have just chatted away, slept and whined about how I have poor time management.

thought no3.
I wanna be a geek like I was in secondary school again. At lease I scored well.

thought no4.
GOD, I failed 3 tests in a day...

thought no5.
Why the hell did I spend 8.90 on a freaking Ben&Jerry's milkshake?? Maybe coz it was sooo darn heavenly.

thought no6.
I feel like days should be longer.

thought no7.
I should sleep less.

thought no8.
I need to watch a movie at the moviehall. I am deprived..

thought no9.
I wish I was a guy because there are soo many pretty girls in TPJC.

thought no10.
Who needs to be guy to be with one of those girls?

thought no11.
OK, I was just joking.

thought no12.
Blame cookie monster.

thought no13.
I should go bathe.

thought no14.
NO, A levels cant be this neearr.. I m NOT prepared..

thought no15.
maybe we should not be too judgemental about our math teacher. We should go consult another one.

thought no16.
I thought this blog was not for me to whine. OH yeah..

For her, I wish I had taken Science

HAHAHA

OH dearrr...

HAHA here!

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